waking up

i sometimes don't know where i'm at
like today
am i where i'm supposed to be?
is this the person i'm supposed to be with?
am i insane?

but the times that i don't think
about where i'm at
are probably those
times where I shouldn't be.

dogs

i just figured out why dog is man's best friend: because the dog it consistently the same when you go to it for something.

there is no longevity in insanity.

this is the soft voice of the evening

I could stand tall
I could lay low

This is the sound that swims inside me
that circle sound is what surrounds me
this is the land that grows around me
and these are the hands that come in handy
we know we know we had a choice
we chose rejoice



the crack of spring like an egg is too much anxiety
those two days or two hours or two tears
whatever the length
it whips a pain
in my pink neck
and my head snaps
one two
and it stings
the crack of winter breaks to spring
the two second crack
the dirt and soot and lust in the eyes
the light air
and sun
and foreshadowing
heat
ugh
it hurts
just happen
just happen
just happen
and leave me
alone.

iraq vs. academy awards

too bad people don't have the same passion for all the wrongful death in this world as they do hollywood.

well well well well well well well

Sent a total of five applications out in the past three days to universities and high schools. I'm tired.
going to indy for MLK weekend. my friend bought a kegorator and wants to try it out in his new penthouse. i like road trips. let's see, what can I blog on.

weB LOG

yeah, that. okay, that's it.

i was wondering about the origin of marriage. when did it start. and what happened before the concept was introduced within a society. is it one cultural root? does it have anything to do with the onset of the bible into culture? are we capable of staying with one person? why do kurt russell and susan surandan stay with their partners? are the rings and paperwork just too much pressure? how does something abstract exert that kind of pressure? the absence of marriage--i wonder, statistically, if couples stay together longer when not married. it's hard being around someone for a lengthy period of time, and we're expected to do it with an opposite gender. simply amazing. it might work, it might not.

fog

i just ran in the thick fog and it was one of the best
because i couldn't see the end of the streets
but there was an odd smell
and i felt like a bird
in pollution.